Wednesday, August 6, 2008

A Divided Heart

You know when the Lord is trying to get your attention. It is not vague or something you can question. When is really trying to make a point he will address it in every message you hear at church and in your quiet times. Even through conversations with other people, if they realize it or not.

For the past few weeks I have noticed that a lot of my time is spent on the computer. Every few minutes alone I get and even when the boys are awake, I surf everyone's blog and think of my next postings. At church a couple weeks ago, our pastor talked about throwing off things that can hinder your relationship with God. He made a point to say that those things can be "good". Immediately, my mind when straight to my internet habit. I said to myself.."I can not give this up because this is my community with people. It keeps me going being by myself in the day." He said, "I alone fulfill." In my quiet time today it asked, "What would have to change in your life for you to experience more times of "treasuring" your blessing, and "meditating" on the goodness of God?" Okay Lord, I know. I know.

As I have been pondering on this the last couple of weeks, my mind has even drifted to giving my blog a makeover. So I found myself spending hours on figuring out how to do it. Wow, I can not believe that I was allowing this to happen again! Dern! I think sometimes God should hit us over the head with a 2 by 4.

So all this to say, I wasn't going to post this because obviously it looks like I did not learn a lesson. But, wanted to keep myself in check. So, until I can get my habit under control, it may look like I dropped off the map. I love yall and I will catch ya later!


Membership Required said...

Well while you are visiting with the Lord, he may give you a hall pass to work on your blog or communicate. Remember he wants you to be happy just not an addict. Grin. Try
for a do it yourself blog make over. Apparently there are even free items so at least you wont be paying for your craving. If your time away doesn't work to how you would like it remember there is always Lent season 2009. Grin.

Courtney said...

now why did you have to write this ;-)

i am in the same place as you and i just did not want to admit it.

much love babe

Nancy Mon said...

I don't know whether to leave a comment or not. Will my commenting tempt you to spend time on the computer??? I don't know but I am taking my chances...

This is a good word and a good reminder about time and being a good steward of it. Thanks!

Matt, Andrea, and Luke said...

the computer feels like an escape, doesn't it?! i am with you! it's a challenge when you want to feel like you have some kind of connection to the outside world.